Amyelia

It’s almost the end of the semester and I really hope to God that I will receive my certificate and accreditation without a hitch. Well, not too much of one anyway. So, about that waste-of-time-subject that I’ve been dreading failing, a few of my classmates and I spoke to our co-ordinator about it and she said she’ll have a word. I honestly think it’s unfair for us to be penalised due to our lack of attendance. Especially when the teacher always comes late, leaves early, doesn’t really teach us anything and seems like she’s just basically there to take the roll and then skedaddle. One of our assessments is, apparently, a test and yet we haven’t done much theory, or much of anything really, in class. To be fair, I’ve only attended two out of five classes but from what I’ve heard I haven’t actually missed out on much besides her bitching about the lack of attendance. I’ll be attending the rest of these Friday morning train wrecks until the semester’s up anyhow, just to appease a person who isn’t really worth appeasing.

Onto other news, I need to point out something I hate. I hate when someone is talking, in front of and to me, how attractive/beautiful/lovely they think asian girls are because their features are so nice (or whatever) but they obviously are not including me in that generalisation. Honestly, most of the time I ignore that kind of thing because I already know that I am not your stereotypical cute, petite, delicate china doll, but sometimes it just gets to me, especially when it’s happening right in front of my face. There are times when I even attempt to at least meet some of the criteria that will make me appear to be one of these china dolls, but deep inside I know it’s futile and that the only shot I have is to make the best of what I’ve got in a style befitting me.

It’s really embarrassing being my age and still worrying about this kind of stuff. I should be past the point of being insecure about my image; after all I am with someone who thinks I’m attractive and, most importantly, accepts me for who I am. So why do I senselessly put myself through this kind of stupid self-criticism? Who knows. There are many areas where I fail, but image is not something that is really my fault, I inherited what I have and there’s no way of escaping it short of surgery. So get over it!

Ugh. This is depressing. Moving on…

I’m currently reading three books at the same time, although all by the same author: Reaper Man, Light Fantastic and The Fifth Elephant by Terry Pratchett. Ever since I met James and he got me into Pratchett books I’ve quite thoroughly enjoyed them. I love how he’s always making parodies of popular culture; I appreciate that kind of humour being relentlessly sarcastic and having a bit of a skewed view of things. I’m waiting on George R.R Martin to finally announce the finished status and release of Dance with Dragons – the fifth book in his series called A Song of Ice and Fire – I’m dying to know what happens already. Waiting for a book is torture for a freakin’ nerdy bookworm like me!

Okay, enough for today!

-Amyelia